What is a website? What is it? I don't really know what people expect out of one. I don't value my opinions and I don't value the opinions of others, so I don't really know what to put here. Aesthetics rule above all else, they vibrate at a frequency that words cannot. Even so, it's not like I'm choosing these graphics because I like them. It started as a fun joke, but now I've go to commit to the bit, and I'm afraid to be myself. If I expose to much, people will drag me out and label me as something I'm not, because even though they don't know me they've already judged me. Still, it' not really like I had anything useful to say in the first place, so maybe I shouldn't feel so bad. I'll never feel safe to express my true opinions because everytime I have I end up vilified for speaking my mind, so it's better to not say anything and be silently judged than it is to say something and get shat on. How do others find it in them to speak up and be themselves then? They look genuine, but are they really? Who can I trust? I can only trust myself. I don't like it when people direct message me conversation they've had with other people because it feels like sloppy seconds. Don't fucking waste my time. This sites a waste of time. The internet is a waste of time, and I'm sick and tired of it. I don't think there's anything else out there in the world for me though. I deserve this pile of shit, truly. Sometimes I wish I could easily lie to myself, so I can connect with others, but it feels like touching a hot stove every single time. I don't like anybody, I don't trust them, I'm only doing what I was taught by others. I want to log off already. My room is really hot and sweaty, I've had this lid from chocolate pudding on my desk for a week now. There's nothing of importance here, is what I mean to say. God, in my next life, make sure there isn't one.